Finally, everything is really OVER and I don't know what feelings I am having right now. Should I be happy or sad? I should be HAPPY instead of be sad right now because that was what I always wished for. Is it really what I had always wished for? If yes, why don't I feel peaceful and satisfied at all? That was what I had always hoped for it to happen someday but now, the thing's really happening and I feel so depressed and clueless...I really don't know what I wanna do right now...just clueless about everything. I must be mad already. I always say it but I don't really know whether I really mean it. However, when I heard you said exactly the same thing to me, my tears just dropped and I don't know why. Yesterday was the most horrible day in my life. I swear that I have never ever waited for someone that long because I'm super impatient. You were so cruel to me. Are you trying to take revenge of me for what I have done to you in the past or just because as what you explained to me? I can't understand you and I can't understand myself either. My brain wanted it to happen this way but my heart just couldn't accept it. This thing is really so headache and confused. JUST WANT TO FORGET AND GET OVER IT SOON. Maybe you were right. We are too tired. We should turn everything back to the beginning. If I could make the decision again, I don't hope to make it to start because it has its ending. Okays, just want to say thank you for always be there for me and sorry for what I have done to you.

Ps: Thx sweetie for talking to me last night. I feel much much better right now. If you didn't talk to me, I think I will just cry and cry nonstop.
Pps: Pls don't ask me what I am talking in this entry. Thx