I am so busy lately.
Go to school, then go to work, then go home.
Everyday with the same routine.
I guess it was the best way to keep myself busy and my mind to stop thinking of complicated things
Also to make me forget about how I feel anymore
I was so happy, I made $2000 within a month
I used it to good uses, paying school fee and house fee and other expenses
Anyway, last tuesday I received a facebook message from someone
Was just a simple question but it made my day, wash away all my sadness
But it also makes my heart to go crazy once more time
I start to become stalker and feel happy whenever you reply my texts
I just hope, one day, you will sms me first. Just one text from u a day will make my day
I don't know if I fall in love again too soon or what
Sandy, Don't you feel scared? Don't you feel afraid it may not work out like all the previous relationship you had? What if you would lose another good friend like that again?
Maybe I should let this feeling goes away by itself
Now isn't the right time yet!
Sunday, July 15, 2012
Friday, June 29, 2012
Safety at work prize presentation
Met up in the morning with my group mates
It was so awkward to walk with him but whatever, I don't care already
Trying my best to pretend everything was fine
Went to McDonalds for breakfast and I had my starbucks at my breakfast
Was damn full after drinking it
Found the Holiday Inn Hotel. It looks kinda grand to me
Was kinda disappointed about the results :(
I got consolation prize :(
Anyway, it worth-ed $1000 so at least I still had $250 :)
Went back school to finish my animation
Then headed to workplace at 4.30pm
And I had to work till 12.30. Omg I was so dead tired after I reached home
Fell asleep on my table
Anyway, I talked to him on Skype and he was kinda busy talking to her
Was really sad but it was my fault for choosing to walk away from him, from the one that loved me so much
I had to wish him happiness and let go of him
Shouldn't depend on him too much yeah
PS: today was kinda normal, nothing made me happy nor really sad :(
It was so awkward to walk with him but whatever, I don't care already
Trying my best to pretend everything was fine
Went to McDonalds for breakfast and I had my starbucks at my breakfast
Was damn full after drinking it
Found the Holiday Inn Hotel. It looks kinda grand to me
Was kinda disappointed about the results :(
I got consolation prize :(
Anyway, it worth-ed $1000 so at least I still had $250 :)
Went back school to finish my animation
Then headed to workplace at 4.30pm
And I had to work till 12.30. Omg I was so dead tired after I reached home
Fell asleep on my table
Anyway, I talked to him on Skype and he was kinda busy talking to her
Was really sad but it was my fault for choosing to walk away from him, from the one that loved me so much
I had to wish him happiness and let go of him
Shouldn't depend on him too much yeah
PS: today was kinda normal, nothing made me happy nor really sad :(
Tuesday
Had charactered animation class
I was expecting cold war
But he talked to me first. It was so awkward
I ignored him
Oh well, not like Im so heartless but Im scared the moment I start talking to him I would lose myself control :(
Anyway, Im so excited about tomorrow, the prize presentation >.<
I was expecting cold war
But he talked to me first. It was so awkward
I ignored him
Oh well, not like Im so heartless but Im scared the moment I start talking to him I would lose myself control :(
Anyway, Im so excited about tomorrow, the prize presentation >.<
Monday, June 25, 2012
Ello! I was so tired yesterday till I couldn't blog. But here I am, blogging about yesterday :)
Woke up like 8+ in the morning, prepared everything and headed to Mount Faber to work
I met Kestler and Egin on the train and we chatted for awhile. I had fun talking to them.
They asked me to organise a Sat outing for this week. I am so stressed. So many things are going on at the same time. My brother is flying back on that day as well.
Managed to get give Kestler my contact so next time he can ask me to go work with the group as well. :)
Lol Egin saved his number in my phone with the smiley face. I find he's kinda weird and funny but cute though XP
Met Erni at workplace. She guided me with everything. It was so nice of her :)
Spending my whole day distributing water and refilling them and making popcorns till my whole body is filled with popcorns smell :)
Finished work at 7pm and headed home :)
Everything thing went well but the only problem I had was my shoes, it hurt my feet so much till I wanna die
Damn you SHOES!
Chatted with anh Thang, my brother, aunty and my bestie for awhile before I decided to go to bed :)
Im a good girl, right? Sleep so early :)
PS:I called you and you were drinking, lol, I think I start to miss you again :(. But I can't express it out. Sigh. It's always so complicated when come to love. Oh well, I think for now I just go with the flow :)
Woke up like 8+ in the morning, prepared everything and headed to Mount Faber to work
I met Kestler and Egin on the train and we chatted for awhile. I had fun talking to them.
They asked me to organise a Sat outing for this week. I am so stressed. So many things are going on at the same time. My brother is flying back on that day as well.
Managed to get give Kestler my contact so next time he can ask me to go work with the group as well.
Lol Egin saved his number in my phone with the smiley face. I find he's kinda weird and funny but cute though XP
Met Erni at workplace. She guided me with everything. It was so nice of her :)
Spending my whole day distributing water and refilling them and making popcorns till my whole body is filled with popcorns smell :)
Finished work at 7pm and headed home :)
Everything thing went well but the only problem I had was my shoes, it hurt my feet so much till I wanna die
Damn you SHOES!
Chatted with anh Thang, my brother, aunty and my bestie for awhile before I decided to go to bed :)
Im a good girl, right? Sleep so early :)
PS:I called you and you were drinking, lol, I think I start to miss you again :(. But I can't express it out. Sigh. It's always so complicated when come to love. Oh well, I think for now I just go with the flow :)
Saturday, June 23, 2012
Went to Harry Potter Exhibition today. I had a great time with Cheryl and Michelle :) Brought the instant camera with me and it couldn't work properly. DAMN! Wasting my effort for bringing it only. lol. Singapore is becoming an oven or something. I swear it's damn hot, I melt everytime I step out of the house. Lol. Harry Potter Exhibition was awesome.
Anyway, I saw someone was tweeting today. Right, karma will knock on the person's door very soon. I don't have to do anything to revenge. I just have to live happily and watch when is your turn to get karma :). I'm sure it will come to you REAL SOON!
For a moment I thought, she had a love for more than 4 years and she can give up. So, why can't I? I will let go this time. This time I feel so sure about my feeling. Nothing special, no more longing for you but just an angry heart for all the things you have done to me.
Ps: Love today! Life is simple if I look at it simpler.
I am so lazy to do the card
I have to go work tomorrow? oh gosh, lazy mode is activated :(
I have to be stronger !
Hello my blog :)
Been long since I last blogged again, hahahaha. I really cannot help it. Im either too busy to blog or too sian to blog XP.
But I promise from now on I will blog everyday so the future Sandy can read back her old days to see how childish and stupid the young Sandy was XP.
Been through many things lately, but the fact I am still here, blogging means I have been able to pull myself together and move on with life. For this moment, life to me is a bitch. I find myself struggling through all the problems it is giving. But oh wells, I won't break down. I am not weak, I am a strong Sandy.
Well, I believe nothing bad will haunt you forever. Bad things come and then good things come after that, right? #mustBelieve
to you: Well I hope you are happy with your life after doing all these to me. I swear this time is the last time I ever give you another chance. I'm done with you. I'm tired of seeing myself crying because of you. I'm sick of reading all my emotional posts since I dated you. No more crying and complete idiot me who always gave you 100% of my heart and efforts for you anymore. NO MORE I PROMISE! and one day I hope karma will come to you and serve you whatever you deserve! This is the last post for you! No more you in my life! Thanks for everything things and all the shits you've done and given me!
Daddy: your sudden death still shocks me whenever I think about it. I really cannot believe that I have lost you forever. I am so sorry for always being so bad to you, for not treating you right :( I really regret all those things. You had been the greatest father. You are so mean to other people but to me, you always treated me like a princess. You always cared for me. Since I came to Singapore to study, you never failed to call me and ask me how was my day. I took you for granted. If only I could turn back the time, I would say how much I love you everyday :(. The only thing now I can do for you is praying for you everyday. Hope you can rest in peace! And don't worry about me. I will grown up, be stronger than ever to take care of mom. She's the dearest person to me now. I will help you take care of her in your place. I won't let anyone hurt her. I WILL NEVER LET ANYONE HURT HER! Though you passed away, but I know, you are always around me, watching over me!
Daddy, I really miss you and love you lots. Thanks for everything you've done for me!
Been through many things lately, but the fact I am still here, blogging means I have been able to pull myself together and move on with life. For this moment, life to me is a bitch. I find myself struggling through all the problems it is giving. But oh wells, I won't break down. I am not weak, I am a strong Sandy.
Well, I believe nothing bad will haunt you forever. Bad things come and then good things come after that, right? #mustBelieve
to you: Well I hope you are happy with your life after doing all these to me. I swear this time is the last time I ever give you another chance. I'm done with you. I'm tired of seeing myself crying because of you. I'm sick of reading all my emotional posts since I dated you. No more crying and complete idiot me who always gave you 100% of my heart and efforts for you anymore. NO MORE I PROMISE! and one day I hope karma will come to you and serve you whatever you deserve! This is the last post for you! No more you in my life! Thanks for everything things and all the shits you've done and given me!
Daddy: your sudden death still shocks me whenever I think about it. I really cannot believe that I have lost you forever. I am so sorry for always being so bad to you, for not treating you right :( I really regret all those things. You had been the greatest father. You are so mean to other people but to me, you always treated me like a princess. You always cared for me. Since I came to Singapore to study, you never failed to call me and ask me how was my day. I took you for granted. If only I could turn back the time, I would say how much I love you everyday :(. The only thing now I can do for you is praying for you everyday. Hope you can rest in peace! And don't worry about me. I will grown up, be stronger than ever to take care of mom. She's the dearest person to me now. I will help you take care of her in your place. I won't let anyone hurt her. I WILL NEVER LET ANYONE HURT HER! Though you passed away, but I know, you are always around me, watching over me!
Daddy, I really miss you and love you lots. Thanks for everything you've done for me!
There are so many things I wanna say it out loud!
So many things that I have done and maybe I will regret it for life!
I'm so lost! I can't tell my feelings anymore. I know it's fading away.
When there is a scar, it can't be cured with simple words. It needs actions to glue it back.
3 more weeks. I guess!
So many things that I have done and maybe I will regret it for life!
I'm so lost! I can't tell my feelings anymore. I know it's fading away.
When there is a scar, it can't be cured with simple words. It needs actions to glue it back.
3 more weeks. I guess!
Sigh! Seem like this is the only place where i can say out my feelings. Im super sad today. I can feel there was something fishy going on and so i tried my luck to check it, hoping that my instinc was wrong. Haiz who knows it really came true. Mixed feelings. What am
I supposed to do? I feel like i have no more strenght to continue to believe in it anymore after so many times i have been deceived. Im such a naive and idiot person. Things will never change, NEVER! I thought as long as i put in effort, care for you more you will not think of her anymore. But somehow somewhere deep in your heart, she is always there. If she were to be here right now, i guess there isnt a place for me at all. What i fear more is really happening now. Haiz! Should i just give up already? Whats the point of holding on and hurting myself again an again? So confused!
What a day!
I supposed to do? I feel like i have no more strenght to continue to believe in it anymore after so many times i have been deceived. Im such a naive and idiot person. Things will never change, NEVER! I thought as long as i put in effort, care for you more you will not think of her anymore. But somehow somewhere deep in your heart, she is always there. If she were to be here right now, i guess there isnt a place for me at all. What i fear more is really happening now. Haiz! Should i just give up already? Whats the point of holding on and hurting myself again an again? So confused!
What a day!
I don't know what I want anymore. It's hard to read my mind and heart. Too complicated!
Should I turn left, turn right or just continue to go straight?
Everything happens for a reason, but I don't see the reasons.
Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So, love the people who treat you right, forgive the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. It it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it'd be easy, they just promised IT WOULD BE WORTH IT. <3
Should I turn left, turn right or just continue to go straight?
Everything happens for a reason, but I don't see the reasons.
Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So, love the people who treat you right, forgive the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. It it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it'd be easy, they just promised IT WOULD BE WORTH IT. <3
16/11/11
Went school early today to edit, compile assignments
Managed to help dear to solve the problems at last minutes :)
Stayed back in school to do animation = SIAN TTM!
I was so exhausted today till I fell asleep on the bus and I almost missed my stop >.<
Received a special call that made my day :)
Really really happy and touched :) though it was simple but at least it showed me something <3
Alrighty, shall go bath and start on my animation again, HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ!
Nights! :)
Managed to help dear to solve the problems at last minutes :)
Stayed back in school to do animation = SIAN TTM!
I was so exhausted today till I fell asleep on the bus and I almost missed my stop >.<
Received a special call that made my day :)
Really really happy and touched :) though it was simple but at least it showed me something <3
Alrighty, shall go bath and start on my animation again, HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ!
Nights! :)
If you happen to see this
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PS: I AM SORRY
PS: I AM SORRY
11:11 11/11/11
It would just be like any other friday to me if you did not make it become a special day for me.
Thank you so much!!!
Though it was short time spent with you, I was happy :)
You changed and I love your changes <3
Love you lots <3<3<3
I hope we can be like this till the next 11.11.11 ? XP
H.A.P.P.Y <3
Thank you so much!!!
Though it was short time spent with you, I was happy :)
You changed and I love your changes <3
Love you lots <3<3<3
I hope we can be like this till the next 11.11.11 ? XP
H.A.P.P.Y <3
to you
I really really wished I could talk to you anytime, be with you every single moment.
I really never tested you.
I was longing for you to talk to me because I'm afraid that I would disturb you the moment I talk to you so I waited.
I didn't know it turned out to make you sad.
I'm with you because I want to bring you happiness, not sadness.
But still, part of me feel that, you don't belong with me.
You're better off without me.
I really feel it that way. I know I shouldn't think too much but I can't help it.
Please, please be happy! As long as I see you smiling and laughing happily. I'm happy :)
I'm sorry that I gave you the wrong impression that I ignored and tested you today.
Tomorrow, I will try harder.
I really never tested you.
I was longing for you to talk to me because I'm afraid that I would disturb you the moment I talk to you so I waited.
I didn't know it turned out to make you sad.
I'm with you because I want to bring you happiness, not sadness.
But still, part of me feel that, you don't belong with me.
You're better off without me.
I really feel it that way. I know I shouldn't think too much but I can't help it.
Please, please be happy! As long as I see you smiling and laughing happily. I'm happy :)
I'm sorry that I gave you the wrong impression that I ignored and tested you today.
Tomorrow, I will try harder.
#1
Ello my blog!
How are you?!? okay fine, I'm lame hahahahahaha
Well, it's been a long time since my last post huh? I was so busy with everything, school work, work and r/s. It was a total madness for me. I can't balance my life, my thoughts when all of it are clashing together. Anyway, things are clearer now. I know what I should do and what I should not do now. I caused the mess the other day just because of my moment of heat. Well, I can see myself turning into a bitch and that is the last thing I would ever want to happen to me. I was really guilty for what I have done. Besides saying sorry, I don't really know how to amend my mistakes, haiz. Guess things will work out in the end.
Recently, I've been reading your blog and I realized, 15 days, freaking 15 days are all it took for me to start all the tortures on you, being ridiculous to you. Well I never realized it till now. I gave you hell, not some real romantic r/s that you were looking for. I feel so damn terrible and the worst part, I mistook that I treated you well but actually I was wrong. I finally understand why you are becoming like this and treating me like this now. I really deserve it. I won't blame you anymore. It was all my fault, for taking you for granted. Well, I still love you but I have learnt, "if you love someone, set them free, loving the person doesn't mean you must possess the person that you love, that's a selfish act. If you really do love them, you just hope the person you love always be happy. Well, I will pray for you to be happy everyday :). I hope my praying will come true for you :)
Anyway, I manage to survive through a day without texting you, disturbing you. I hope I can do that for the rest of other days though I would love to text you and ask, what are you doing? Have you eaten? But I guess you would be happier without my disturbance. :)
Jia you Sandy, you can do it :)
How are you?!? okay fine, I'm lame hahahahahaha
Well, it's been a long time since my last post huh? I was so busy with everything, school work, work and r/s. It was a total madness for me. I can't balance my life, my thoughts when all of it are clashing together. Anyway, things are clearer now. I know what I should do and what I should not do now. I caused the mess the other day just because of my moment of heat. Well, I can see myself turning into a bitch and that is the last thing I would ever want to happen to me. I was really guilty for what I have done. Besides saying sorry, I don't really know how to amend my mistakes, haiz. Guess things will work out in the end.
Recently, I've been reading your blog and I realized, 15 days, freaking 15 days are all it took for me to start all the tortures on you, being ridiculous to you. Well I never realized it till now. I gave you hell, not some real romantic r/s that you were looking for. I feel so damn terrible and the worst part, I mistook that I treated you well but actually I was wrong. I finally understand why you are becoming like this and treating me like this now. I really deserve it. I won't blame you anymore. It was all my fault, for taking you for granted. Well, I still love you but I have learnt, "if you love someone, set them free, loving the person doesn't mean you must possess the person that you love, that's a selfish act. If you really do love them, you just hope the person you love always be happy. Well, I will pray for you to be happy everyday :). I hope my praying will come true for you :)
Anyway, I manage to survive through a day without texting you, disturbing you. I hope I can do that for the rest of other days though I would love to text you and ask, what are you doing? Have you eaten? But I guess you would be happier without my disturbance. :)
Jia you Sandy, you can do it :)
31/10/11
I will try and get over it if this is the only way.
what can I do..
Your words are like thousand swords, piercing through my heart.
Your action makes me tears :(
Stop H.O.P.I.N.G
Stop B.E.L.I.E.V.I.N.G
that would make me hurt lesser...there's no such thing as miracle!
what can I do..
Your words are like thousand swords, piercing through my heart.
Your action makes me tears :(
Stop H.O.P.I.N.G
Stop B.E.L.I.E.V.I.N.G
that would make me hurt lesser...there's no such thing as miracle!
"Thanks alot ah jellyfish lol! really really realllyyyyyyyyyyy thanks alot! I really enjoyed today! and really appreciate everything!! I think if i wanna say proper thanks say till next year also havent say finish. and ya really thanks leh for everything you did! love them all! and i love everypiece of today!!!! XD"
sweet memory :)
sweet memory :)
Cruel world
Why must people treat one another like this? Why can't they treat one another with their true heart? I'm really a fool. I thought as long as you treat them with your heart, they would do the same thing back. Nah, I was wrong. Things are much more complicated when we grow up. Now friendship is the level of how much benefit I can gain from you. Such a sad thing to say! Oh well, it's a crucial world, what did I expect?
I'm REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY disappointed and sad, I should just be alone. No one will ever have the free time to care for me. Yeah who did I think I am? I'm just nobody to them, even to you :(. Why are things are so complicated lately? Is it because I am too moody and thinking too much?
Forget it, I shall only be nice to those who are nice to me. If you are not, get lost!
PS: I miss my family and my secondary school life. It was so fun and people treat each other with their hearts. They will go 100% for you if they can help. I am really sick of my life now! really sick of my relationship, friendship and school work. Just wanna get away from all of these.
I'm REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY disappointed and sad, I should just be alone. No one will ever have the free time to care for me. Yeah who did I think I am? I'm just nobody to them, even to you :(. Why are things are so complicated lately? Is it because I am too moody and thinking too much?
Forget it, I shall only be nice to those who are nice to me. If you are not, get lost!
PS: I miss my family and my secondary school life. It was so fun and people treat each other with their hearts. They will go 100% for you if they can help. I am really sick of my life now! really sick of my relationship, friendship and school work. Just wanna get away from all of these.
I really hate myself for loving you
This is exactly how I feel
I'm falling in love with you, and which will come to pass?
Will the feeling do nothing but swell, or
Will you notice it
Even though I've never said anything?
Like snow, but quietly
It continues to pile up
Hold me tight if I think like this
I didn't want to know
What it was like to fall in love with someone
I love you; my tears won't stop
Therefore, I should be free of you
How long will I keep thinking of you?
My sigh makes the window glass fog up
Now, a burning candle
Can't melt my shaking heart anymore?
Hold me tight, strong enough to break me
If we meet in a biting cold blizzard
I won't feel cold, and
I miss you everytime I think of you
This scarf that I knit for you
I'm holding it alone tonight
If there were an eternally falling snow
This feeling I have for you, could I hide it?
Hold me tight if I think like this
I didn't want to know
What it was like to fall in love with someone
I love you; my chest fills up
I want to cry out to the winter sky
I want to see you now
I'm falling in love with you, and which will come to pass?
Will the feeling do nothing but swell, or
Will you notice it
Even though I've never said anything?
Like snow, but quietly
It continues to pile up
Hold me tight if I think like this
I didn't want to know
What it was like to fall in love with someone
I love you; my tears won't stop
Therefore, I should be free of you
How long will I keep thinking of you?
My sigh makes the window glass fog up
Now, a burning candle
Can't melt my shaking heart anymore?
Hold me tight, strong enough to break me
If we meet in a biting cold blizzard
I won't feel cold, and
I miss you everytime I think of you
This scarf that I knit for you
I'm holding it alone tonight
If there were an eternally falling snow
This feeling I have for you, could I hide it?
Hold me tight if I think like this
I didn't want to know
What it was like to fall in love with someone
I love you; my chest fills up
I want to cry out to the winter sky
I want to see you now
H.E.L.L.O my N.E.W L.I.F.E
hey! I'm back again! My days are repeating the same routine everyday, sleep, wake up, eat, watch dramas, go out and go out. Though it repeats the same thing everyday, I have fun and seriously enjoying my life :) I don't want friday to come so fast! I still want to enjoy my life here with my family and friends. I don't want to be all alone all again :(.
Anyway, I'm happier now compared to few weeks ago. I think I have thought about it clearly. No matter how much I tried to hold on, as long as he's not mine, forever, he will not be mine. Holding on to something that doesn't belong to you, one day, you will feel tired and will let go of it. It took me months to figure out this simple fact, lol, stupid me!
Anyway, I did unexpected thing today. OMG, I was out of my mind I guess, but it turned out the way I wanted it to be. I'm still confused over few matters. I hope I can figure it out SOON :) anyway, life is going to the direction I want it to be. I hope it would remain calm like this for now. :) hahaha!
I love my friends and family! <3<3<3 without them, I don't know what I gonna be when life's being a bitch to me!
Eternal Snow
Hello my blog!
It's been so long since I posted the last post! I was so busy with school, projects, assignments and dealing with relationship problems till I have no time to update but now I'm back.
I don't know whether its a good thing or a bad thing to have time to post. It's because I'm so free till I have time to write bullshit here XP.
Haiz things haven't been going smoothly for me these days. I kept quarreling with him over many problems. I really have no more strength to fight anymore :(. The worst part, we really officially broke up and I was really really sad over it. I cried for two weeks straight, never ate whole day and after that, I lost 5 -6kgs...OMG...I cannot believe I can lose so much weights within a short period .
My heart is really aching when he is online yet he never talks to me :(. When I used all my courage to call him, he declined my calls because he's busy talking to her. I know we are over. I have no right to be angry at him or whatever but, my heart just aches so much, till it wants so explode sometimes. It's the first time I have ever experienced something like that. Haiz :( How I wish...everything turns back to normal...turn back to the point, we were just friends or maybe to the point when we were just so madly in love. Lol, we can't never ever go back to those times :(....haiz...haiz...haiz
Anyway, I hope this hurtful feeling will be gone as soon as possible so I can be a happy Sandy again. I want to talk to him as a friend again. Friends keep telling me, time will fade it away...soon. I want to know.. SOON = ? 1 month? or 1 year?
Haiz....I JUST HOPE EVERYTHING WILL BE OVER SOON, REAL SOON!
It's been so long since I posted the last post! I was so busy with school, projects, assignments and dealing with relationship problems till I have no time to update but now I'm back.
I don't know whether its a good thing or a bad thing to have time to post. It's because I'm so free till I have time to write bullshit here XP.
Haiz things haven't been going smoothly for me these days. I kept quarreling with him over many problems. I really have no more strength to fight anymore :(. The worst part, we really officially broke up and I was really really sad over it. I cried for two weeks straight, never ate whole day and after that, I lost 5 -6kgs...OMG...I cannot believe I can lose so much weights within a short period .
My heart is really aching when he is online yet he never talks to me :(. When I used all my courage to call him, he declined my calls because he's busy talking to her. I know we are over. I have no right to be angry at him or whatever but, my heart just aches so much, till it wants so explode sometimes. It's the first time I have ever experienced something like that. Haiz :( How I wish...everything turns back to normal...turn back to the point, we were just friends or maybe to the point when we were just so madly in love. Lol, we can't never ever go back to those times :(....haiz...haiz...haiz
Anyway, I hope this hurtful feeling will be gone as soon as possible so I can be a happy Sandy again. I want to talk to him as a friend again. Friends keep telling me, time will fade it away...soon. I want to know.. SOON = ? 1 month? or 1 year?
Haiz....I JUST HOPE EVERYTHING WILL BE OVER SOON, REAL SOON!
15/10/10
Haiz! I'M SO CONFUSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Everything doesn't go the way I want it to be...
I just want to lead a normal and happy life!!!!!!!!!!
Is it that hard?!? :(
I need a solution to all my problems!!!
Can someone tell me?!? :(
All I can ever think of is running away...
Sandy, you must be strong, don't break down!!!
Everything doesn't go the way I want it to be...
I just want to lead a normal and happy life!!!!!!!!!!
Is it that hard?!? :(
I need a solution to all my problems!!!
Can someone tell me?!? :(
All I can ever think of is running away...
Sandy, you must be strong, don't break down!!!
Words are like bullets
Well! I've not blogged lately but yeah I'm finally back again. Things aren't going well lately and I have been thinking a lot about it. Everything, those unwanted memories are flashing back, it really really hurts me a lot. I can still remember all the exact words that pierce through my heart every single time I think about it. I just don't want to think about it at all but sometimes, I can't help it. How I wish my mind work like a computer, whatever information that I don't want it, I can just delete out of my mind :(. Everything is just so complicated and I want to run away from all of it. I'm too confused of what I really want. HELP!!!
Anyway, the result is finally out, my very 1st gpa isn't that bad like what I expected it to be. I'm satisfied with it and congrats to all my friends too :). I'm truly happy for them. Recently I've been trying to do pull up...haiz...it sucks! I can't even do 1 :(. Wait! I'll train and one day, I will be able to do at least 1. Anyway, I saw the new book for the shopaholic collection today, I want I want :(. Craps! I really want it badly :(. I've been going out everyday, don't really have the time to pack all my things :(. Haiz...Why am I so lazy?!? Anyway, 1 more month and I have to say goodbye to Punggol house, and farewell my brother and aunty!...haiz...I don't like it at all :(....I bet I'll miss those memories greatly :(
Haiz! I'm so random today!
Shall go to bed nw!
Anyway, the result is finally out, my very 1st gpa isn't that bad like what I expected it to be. I'm satisfied with it and congrats to all my friends too :). I'm truly happy for them. Recently I've been trying to do pull up...haiz...it sucks! I can't even do 1 :(. Wait! I'll train and one day, I will be able to do at least 1. Anyway, I saw the new book for the shopaholic collection today, I want I want :(. Craps! I really want it badly :(. I've been going out everyday, don't really have the time to pack all my things :(. Haiz...Why am I so lazy?!? Anyway, 1 more month and I have to say goodbye to Punggol house, and farewell my brother and aunty!...haiz...I don't like it at all :(....I bet I'll miss those memories greatly :(
Haiz! I'm so random today!
Shall go to bed nw!
random post :)
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Wild wild wet
I don't know what this fruit is but it looks pretty :)
My kite! It flew up so high!!! WHO SAY I CANNOT FLY A KITE XP
Went to fly kite with shortie XP. It was FUN FUN FUN XP
Met shortie and Kages at PP for breakfast in the morning before we headed to WWW :). Was super excited, we went there early and it only opens at 1pm, so Kages was complaining about her swimsuit look like a small kid so she tried to walk around to find a new one. After keep trying on so many swimsuits, she didn't buy but shortie bought one :). We headed to WWW, gosh, my one was the most revealing compared to 2 of them. I was kinda uncomfortable wearing it but I had no choice. :(. Wanted to play a lot of things but K didn't want to because she was feeling so paranoid that people were staring at her. So most of the time we were playing around in the pool. Went home about 4+ and J said she wanted to treat me sushi XD. Tho' I was very tired and sleepy, I still went because of free food XP. After eating finish, all of them realised that they never brought their wallet. I don't know whether it was on purpose for to pay or what but I was their "hero"...Anyway, won't celebrate moon cake festival at all. I can't feel the atmosphere, I miss my hometown and my friends in VN :(. If they were here with me, maybe I won't feel so lonely :(
I WANT TO EAT MOON CAKE AND PLAY LANTERN BUT NO ONE IS FREE T___T *emos*
Will be uploaded WWW photos later XP
20/09/10
Went for job briefing yesterday! It was boring! and I'm not interested in sale at all. Anyway, I made a new friend called Stephanie at the job briefing :). We both decided not to attend the training today XP. Anyway, my plan is cancelled again because Kages's sister has high fever, she has to stay home to take care of her sister. So sad! Anyway, I will meet YS later to fly kite since we both have nothing to do.
Eh! I missed the chance yesterday. I almost had a free ticket to Universal Studio T__T but I passed it to YS. EMO T____T !!! Plus so sad that I couldn't go out with BoonBoon XP. One more sad thing, I today received a call. I feel so frustrated after hearing it. Why do people always make it so big deal since the matter happened like centuries ago? Completely nonsense!
Anyway, the www will be postponed to Wed. Hope there's nothing go wrong tomorrow >.<
PS: I wanna watch Resident Evil 4!!!!!!!!!!
Eh! I missed the chance yesterday. I almost had a free ticket to Universal Studio T__T but I passed it to YS. EMO T____T !!! Plus so sad that I couldn't go out with BoonBoon XP. One more sad thing, I today received a call. I feel so frustrated after hearing it. Why do people always make it so big deal since the matter happened like centuries ago? Completely nonsense!
Anyway, the www will be postponed to Wed. Hope there's nothing go wrong tomorrow >.<
PS: I wanna watch Resident Evil 4!!!!!!!!!!
19/09/10
Boo! Having cough, sore throat, flu and slight fever right now!
I really really hate the feeling of falling sick T__T. Haiz! stupid fever, I don't like to befriend with you, so can you please disappear from my life :(. Because of this stupid fever, I couldn't go with my chipmunk gang to watch Resident Evil 4 which I was so looking forward seeing it D:
My whole day was just to stay at home slacking, sleeping and resting! What a boring day! Will be going for job briefing tomorrow at Bugis. I still don't get it and really want to find out tomorrow :). Will be going back to school also. LOL! sad! All my friends watched Resident Evil 4 already. Any kind soul wanna accompany me go watch?
I really really hate the feeling of falling sick T__T. Haiz! stupid fever, I don't like to befriend with you, so can you please disappear from my life :(. Because of this stupid fever, I couldn't go with my chipmunk gang to watch Resident Evil 4 which I was so looking forward seeing it D:
My whole day was just to stay at home slacking, sleeping and resting! What a boring day! Will be going for job briefing tomorrow at Bugis. I still don't get it and really want to find out tomorrow :). Will be going back to school also. LOL! sad! All my friends watched Resident Evil 4 already. Any kind soul wanna accompany me go watch?
17/09/10
Random photo with NaNa
Elloooooooooo! Such a long time since my last post!!!
Finally can say goodbye to my nightmare (Studio Project 1) XP
and...
Welcome my holiday! lol~
My original plan was to hang out with chipmunk gang today but one of them couldn't make it so we changed to Sunday :). Yay, I will watch Resident Evil 4 on that day. Cannot wait for it :). Since my plan was cancelled, I spent time staying at home slacking and suddenly, YS called! Guess what, Kages was at her house and they wanted me to come over!!! I was super surprised because I haven't met her since sec 2 >.<. Gosh! Had a great time talking to them and they taught me to play guitar! After that 3 of us headed to Pizza Hut at CP to wait for my aunt :)
We had dinner at Pizza Hut with my friends and family :). Had a great time! and yay, I'm going to see them again on Tuesday for wild wild wet outing :). Cannot wait for it!!! XP and another great news, my nephew is coming on 28 October :)...omg, I miss him!!!
Okay! that's all for today XP
24/07/10
Today is so weird! I suddenly found out my new habit which is taking out my phone then look at it and smile. Maybe...it is because I...haiz...forget it...it's too complicated to say here XP. Anyway, I'm just back from Cheryl's house. We had so much fun taking the video. But...but...but I look totally retarded in the video >.<. Hope Mr SZ won't let's the class watch it. If not I need to find a hole to dig and hide XP. I've been super busy lately. Staying back in school almost everyday just to do work (but sometimes is to slack XP). Anyway, I feel super uncomfortable about their behavior towards me. I totally don't like it at all. Haiz, whatever! Okay, I will be going out tomorrow to celebrate my chipchip's birthday. I'm looking forward to it. So before I'm going to have fun, I should finish all my tasks first. I hope I don't slack too much XP
To do list:
-drawing fund
-drawing trees
-design fund
-download more videos XP
-try to edit the video a bit
Hopefully I can at least clear the first 3 tasks XP!
Anyway, I saw JAY CHOU last Wednesday at Bugis. It was like OMG...I'm so lucky XP...by the way, I only got to see him from far so it couldn't count as my best day of the month XP....haha I'm so random XP
Okay, today post is so random XP
I shall go off now
Bye!
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