Letting go

Lol, seem like whenever I feel troubled, I will always come back to my blog. No wonder all my posts are always so emotional. Things have not been going great lately. I'm starting to lose trust in everything, people that I called friends, betraying my trust and manipulating me. Sometimes, I wonder why people would do such things, gossiping and spreading rumors. Does doing all those benefit them in any way?

Anyway, I feel lost. My instinct betrayed me. I was so sure you would have feelings for me too. It's always been guys chase after me, take initiatives to talk to me first. But for this time, it's the first time I've ever actually made effort chasing after a guy, took all the initiatives and worst of all, the first guy that I have ever confessed to, rejected me. Well I guess, there's always the first time. I always fear of changing and rejection and now I'm experiencing one. This feeling sucks to the max but I cannot do anything about it. However, I'm not regretting of this failure because I know I've tried my best. I just hope it would gone as soon as possible. I want my normal life back!!!

. I feel tired of everything, tired of trying.
Tonight, I'm letting this feeling go for real.