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Ello my blog!

How are you?!? okay fine, I'm lame hahahahahaha
Well, it's been a long time since my last post huh? I was so busy with everything, school work, work and r/s. It was a total madness for me. I can't balance my life, my thoughts when all of it are clashing together. Anyway, things are clearer now. I know what I should do and what I should not do now. I caused the mess the other day just because of my moment of heat. Well, I can see myself turning into a bitch and that is the last thing I would ever want to happen to me. I was really guilty for what I have done. Besides saying sorry, I don't really know how to amend my mistakes, haiz. Guess things will work out in the end.

Recently, I've been reading your blog and I realized, 15 days, freaking 15 days are all it took for me to start all the tortures on you, being ridiculous to you. Well I never realized it till now. I gave you hell, not some real romantic r/s that you were looking for. I feel so damn terrible and the worst part, I mistook that I treated you well but actually I was wrong. I finally understand why you are becoming like this and treating me like this now. I really deserve it. I won't blame you anymore. It was all my fault, for taking you for granted. Well, I still love you but I have learnt, "if you love someone, set them free, loving the person doesn't mean you must possess the person that you love, that's a selfish act. If you really do love them, you just hope the person you love always be happy. Well, I will pray for you to be happy everyday :). I hope my praying will come true for you :)

Anyway, I manage to survive through a day without texting you, disturbing you. I hope I can do that for the rest of other days though I would love to text you and ask, what are you doing? Have you eaten? But I guess you would be happier without my disturbance. :)

Jia you Sandy, you can do it :)