Sigh! Seem like this is the only place where i can say out my feelings. Im super sad today. I can feel there was something fishy going on and so i tried my luck to check it, hoping that my instinc was wrong. Haiz who knows it really came true. Mixed feelings. What am
I supposed to do? I feel like i have no more strenght to continue to believe in it anymore after so many times i have been deceived. Im such a naive and idiot person. Things will never change, NEVER! I thought as long as i put in effort, care for you more you will not think of her anymore. But somehow somewhere deep in your heart, she is always there. If she were to be here right now, i guess there isnt a place for me at all. What i fear more is really happening now. Haiz! Should i just give up already? Whats the point of holding on and hurting myself again an again? So confused!
What a day!