to you

I really really wished I could talk to you anytime, be with you every single moment.
I really never tested you.
I was longing for you to talk to me because I'm afraid that I would disturb you the moment I talk to you so I waited.
I didn't know it turned out to make you sad.
I'm with you because I want to bring you happiness, not sadness.
But still, part of me feel that, you don't belong with me.
You're better off without me.
I really feel it that way. I know I shouldn't think too much but I can't help it.

Please, please be happy! As long as I see you smiling and laughing happily. I'm happy :)
I'm sorry that I gave you the wrong impression that I ignored and tested you today.
Tomorrow, I will try harder.