I have to be stronger !

Hello my blog :) Been long since I last blogged again, hahahaha. I really cannot help it. Im either too busy to blog or too sian to blog XP. But I promise from now on I will blog everyday so the future Sandy can read back her old days to see how childish and stupid the young Sandy was XP.

Been through many things lately, but the fact I am still here, blogging means I have been able to pull myself together and move on with life. For this moment, life to me is a bitch. I find myself struggling through all the problems it is giving. But oh wells, I won't break down. I am not weak, I am a strong Sandy.

Well, I believe nothing bad will haunt you forever. Bad things come and then good things come after that, right? #mustBelieve

to you: Well I hope you are happy with your life after doing all these to me. I swear this time is the last time I ever give you another chance. I'm done with you. I'm tired of seeing myself crying because of you. I'm sick of reading all my emotional posts since I dated you. No more crying and complete idiot me who always gave you 100% of my heart and efforts for you anymore. NO MORE I PROMISE! and one day I hope karma will come to you and serve you whatever you deserve! This is the last post for you! No more you in my life! Thanks for everything things and all the shits you've done and given me!

Daddy: your sudden death still shocks me whenever I think about it. I really cannot believe that I have lost you forever. I am so sorry for always being so bad to you, for not treating you right :( I really regret all those things. You had been the greatest father. You are so mean to other people but to me, you always treated me like a princess. You always cared for me. Since I came to Singapore to study, you never failed to call me and ask me how was my day. I took you for granted. If only I could turn back the time, I would say how much I love you everyday :(. The only thing now I can do for you is praying for you everyday. Hope you can rest in peace! And don't worry about me. I will grown up, be stronger than ever to take care of mom. She's the dearest person to me now. I will help you take care of her in your place. I won't let anyone hurt her. I WILL NEVER LET ANYONE HURT HER! Though you passed away, but I know, you are always around me, watching over me!

Daddy, I really miss you and love you lots. Thanks for everything you've done for me!