Eternal Snow

Hello my blog!
It's been so long since I posted the last post! I was so busy with school, projects, assignments and dealing with relationship problems till I have no time to update but now I'm back.
I don't know whether its a good thing or a bad thing to have time to post. It's because I'm so free till I have time to write bullshit here XP.
Haiz things haven't been going smoothly for me these days. I kept quarreling with him over many problems. I really have no more strength to fight anymore :(. The worst part, we really officially broke up and I was really really sad over it. I cried for two weeks straight, never ate whole day and after that, I lost 5 -6kgs...OMG...I cannot believe I can lose so much weights within a short period .
My heart is really aching when he is online yet he never talks to me :(. When I used all my courage to call him, he declined my calls because he's busy talking to her. I know we are over. I have no right to be angry at him or whatever but, my heart just aches so much, till it wants so explode sometimes. It's the first time I have ever experienced something like that. Haiz :( How I wish...everything turns back to normal...turn back to the point, we were just friends or maybe to the point when we were just so madly in love. Lol, we can't never ever go back to those times :(....haiz...haiz...haiz

Anyway, I hope this hurtful feeling will be gone as soon as possible so I can be a happy Sandy again. I want to talk to him as a friend again. Friends keep telling me, time will fade it away...soon. I want to know.. SOON = ? 1 month? or 1 year?
Haiz....I JUST HOPE EVERYTHING WILL BE OVER SOON, REAL SOON!